I actually wish that “Are You Now or Have You Ever Been” hadn’t had Wes and Cordy and Gunn in at all. Their presence makes it feel like just another episode, with the flashbacks only being interesting character exposition. This must be my fifth or sixth (at least) watching of the episode and I only just got the full weight of it.
Angel was betrayed and hurt and faced with the very worst side of humanity, and that pushed him past his limits, past all the effort he’d put into being a good person, and he literally sided with a demon that hides until it has fed on human pain. The power of that metaphor for his own internal struggle (given that canon describes vampires as having a literal demon within them, one who [in Angel ‘s case] fights with the host for the right to feed…) is almost too much on it’s own. But then there’s the factor of him coming back, nearly half a century later, to face down this demon, to refuse it and burn it into ash… And to directly free someone he cares for, someone who’s been tormented that whole time, by doing so…
I always found that episode to be a great standalone but pretty much irrelevant outside of itself, and when I see the deeper meaning… God, I haven’t even touched on the significance of it as foreshadowing for his character arc that season.
Okay but really the level of intelligence displayed by an animal recognising that… It really shows why the view that corvids are probably sentient has such weight behind it.
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This film was so serious that until I hit that caption I thought those were the actual lines.
I may or may not have only half listened to most of what he said.
Do you ever hit “ask” when you didn’t mean to and just want to run so far away nobody will ever see you again because it comes off totally the wrong way?